WHEN UNI TAKES OVER

Something has been bothering me a lot lately and I still haven't figured out a way to solve it. I thought writing about it might help, and maybe some of you are experiencing or have experienced something similar.

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I have always wanted to go to university. Since seeing my sister in her fancy graduation robes when I was five, I knew that was what I wanted to do in the future. In school I worked my ass off in my final two years to get onto the course I wanted at the uni I wanted. I slaved over my personal statement, asking several friends, family and teachers to read it over a million times before I sent it away because I knew it needed to be just right. My course doesn't accept a high number of students at all (there's only about 25 of us) so the stakes were high but I got in. I cried with relief when I got my acceptance letter. I couldn't wait to start university.

Fast forward to now - I am half way through my third of four years and I hate it. All uni brings me is stress, confusion and frustration. I'm not enjoying my course and I feel like I would be having a much better time if I wasn't there. Don't get me wrong, I love to learn and I still fully want to be a journalist - I'm just not happy with the way uni is going. I know I'd be much happier if I wasn't there, but quitting just isn't an option. I only have three semesters left so I may as well stay, it would be a waste of the past two and a half years if I left. I know I have to stick it out and to be honest I do really want to have a degree.

I've just been wondering a lot about how long you should put yourself through unhappiness, even if it will eventually lead to your ultimate goal. I'm 20 years old; I should be enjoying life to the full by travelling, creating, writing and paving the way to my dream career. But uni ties me to one spot, a part-time job deprives me of any free time because when I'm not at uni or studying, I'm at work. I feel claustrophobic and I long for summer when I can have a reasonable amount of time to do whatever the hell I want.

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This has turned out far more rambly than I intended but the main point I am trying to make is this: I fully understand and appreciate that in order to get where you want to be in life, you have to put in a lot of hard work and sometimes you won't like it and that's just life. However, should it really get to the stage where you aren't living your life at all just so that you'll be happy in the future? I want to be happy now. And constantly sacrificing all areas of my personal life isn't making me happy.

Perhaps I'm just moody and cynical from all the exam studying coupled with a sudden cold. When I (hopefully) graduate next summer I'll be so proud and I'll be glad that I stuck it out, but right now that seems way too far in the distance. I just hope this will pass soon and I'll look back on this time and wonder what the hell I was so worried about.

How did you cope with university stress? What are your top tips for getting motivated?

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  1. I know the feeling about University stress! Don't get me wrong I love my course but sometimes I just feel like it takes over my life. I have to write lists for everything, if I can tick things off I feel like I've actually accomplished something. If you want to chat more you can find me at @sometimesclumsy and at http://lizzieharrisonbeauty.blogspot.co.uk/

    Love Lizzie

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    1. Yes, I love making lists! That's actually one of my organisational strategies for the next semester :)

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  3. I'm feeling the exact same right now - I'm in my final year and just want to give up. I feel like I picked the wrong course and wish I had spent my entire time away from home differently. The way I look at it now is that there's nothing more I can change about my choices, so I need to learn from my mistakes to make my future different. I may have chosen the wrong course for me, and may have only just realised this, but with just a few more months work I'll be free and be able to take the positive things that I have learnt away with me to apply to what I really want to do in life :)

    Bethan | Thought from Beth x

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    1. It sucks, doesn't it? Especially if you're not happy with your course. That's a good way to look at it - no point dwelling on past decisions, best to just move on and make the most of what you've got! Good luck with graduating and I hope you do something you're happy with! x

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  4. Sending hugs. I know it seems like it sucks right now but the world will be your oyster once you get your degree! Just try to concentrate on one thing at a time and put everything else aside. Remember that the end is in sight! Xx

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    1. Thanks! Yeah I know, I'll be so happy with my choices in the long run so just have to keep remembering that :) xx

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  5. Hello fellow Scottish blogger! I hated it too, but you are so close to the end. Stick the last bit out x
    Laura | A Life With Frills

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    1. Hello! I know, the end is in sight and I'll be so happy when I get there! x

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  6. Honestly, I think the opposite side of life always seems the better choice when you're looking at it from your side of the fence. I didn't go to university and I consider it one of my worst choices - I'm still stressed out and miserable and I won't come out the other end glad that this is the path that I took.

    Know that you're a warrior, you can battle through this, you've come so far already - much too far to give up.

    Love and hugs, Sammy xo.

    littlefickleblog.blogspot.com

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    1. Yeah I suppose that's always the case isn't it? Always wanting what we don't have! Sorry you feel that way, I hope you find something you love doing and everything works out even though you didn't go to uni - not going could end up taking you exactly where you want to be!
      Thank you so much, hearing things like that really helps to get me back on track and stay motivated! x

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  7. loving the openness and honesty in your writing. lovely post and blog :)
    Amira
    http://holychicxox.blogspot.co.uk/
    xx

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  8. i wanted to quit during 2nd year on my journalism course, but stuck at it until the end (reluctantly). decided i didn't want to do journalism in the traditional sense at all, so now work in PR!

    from helen at thelovecatsinc.com

    ps. there's a £60 skincare giveaway on my blog if you fancy it, click here!

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